“Dear God,” She Prayed…..

“Dear God,” she prayed, “let me be something every minute of every hour of my life” ~Betty Smith A Tree Grows in Brooklyn

The morning of this shoot I had the scare of my life. Headed from the gym and on my way  to work a truck pulled out in front of me and the only way to avoid an accident was to swerve into the next lane. Unfortunately, at 50 mph, it’s hard to maintain control. For what seemed like eternity, but I’m sure was a matter of minutes, I was all over the road. It was in this chaos that I mumbled the words, “Dear God”. Shortly after, I decided the “best case scenario” was to drive into the ditch of a median. It was in this moment that I was flooded with emotions. While the actual scenario shook me to my core I found myself the most hurt from the fact that the other driver, or any other driver for that matter, didn’t even bother to check on me. Humanity disappointed me.

While I wanted to drive home and crawl back in the bed, I knew I had to get to work because I had a parent teacher conference and 24 little people that were expecting me to be there. To say I was emotionally combustible was an understatement. I cried my whole 25 minute commute and said a quick prayer for strength before entering the school building. In true kid fashion my scholars managed to fill my spirit throughout the day. One student got extremely upset because he couldn’t get on the computer because there was a line. Another student came to me and said, “Ms. T, I’m going to give up my turn on the computer to ‘him’ because he’s really upset and I think it’ll make him feel better.” The day continued on and my anger gradually turned to gratitude. I am at a point in my life where I am surrounded by incredible people (big and little) that support me, that love me, and that encourage my dreams. As if that wasn’t enough, right before taking my students I found a note from a scholar that said, “This school is a big community that helps kids. This school is the best at helping kids.” FLOORED! No truer words have ever been said. What I hope that young lady, and all the other scholars that grace those hallways, will one day realize is that she (they) were a part of that community and affected us (the adults) as much as we affected them!

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14 Comments

  1. October 28, 2017 / 11:04 pm

    I’m so glad you were protected during your crisis and buoyed up afterwards. It’s amazing how the Divine finds a way to give us what we need when we need it.

    Also, thanks for reminding me of one of my all time favorite books! I think it’s time to curl up with A Tree Grows in Brooklyn again!

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      October 28, 2017 / 11:52 pm

      I truly appreciate your kind words and you are spot on about him giving us what we need! ~xxx Angell

  2. October 28, 2017 / 11:51 pm

    I love this post! Im glad that your okay and that your day ended up filled with gratitude.

    xoxo
    pslovetashh

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      October 28, 2017 / 11:55 pm

      Thank you! I’d have to say there was no better feeling to know that Wednesday, despite it’s efforts, didn’t get the best of me! lol. ~xxx Angell

  3. October 29, 2017 / 3:00 am

    Thankful you weren’t hurt! I live how little kids somehow have a way of saying and doing the most incredible things at the most important times!

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      October 29, 2017 / 10:41 am

      Thank you! You are so spot on with kids and their timing. That’s one of the perks of my job, they have a way of giving me perspective (and most often times joy) when I need it most!

  4. October 29, 2017 / 11:06 am

    It’s amazing how one person’s actions can affect someone’s life and change it in an instant. You are truly amazing and those students are so blessed to be surrounded by your positivity.

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      October 29, 2017 / 11:33 am

      Amen! Very true and that’s for the good or bad! Thank you so much, those little people really do inspire me to be a better person everyday!

  5. KAJ
    October 29, 2017 / 2:01 pm

    Wow! What a powerful post. We often overlook the opportunities we are given to step in and help others. We are all moving so fast that we never just stop and recognize that some small thing to us (like computer time) could change someone’s whole world.

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      October 29, 2017 / 3:50 pm

      Thank you! You are so right! My littles often make me realize that what I see as silly is HUGE to them. I can’t tell you how many times I laugh and remind myself, “They have only been ALIVE for 7 years, the things they are upset about ARE important to them!” (Powerful takeaway for life right?!)

  6. October 30, 2017 / 4:52 pm

    So powerful! I can’t imagine how scared you were, but what a blessing it is to be around sweet little souls. What a sweet reminder that our actions can make someone’s day a little brighter.

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      October 30, 2017 / 8:22 pm

      Yeah, fear is an understatement! And yes, my little people are my little blessings!

    • lifeofanangell@gmail.com
      November 1, 2017 / 9:09 pm

      Awww thanks Eb! Love you too!

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